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Friday, August 4th, 2006
6:45 pm	Goodbye Awe :( did you think I'd leave without a good bye? Goodbye: Another turning point A fork stuck in the road Time grabs you by the wrist Directs you where to go So make the best of this test And don't ask why It's not a question But a lesson learned in time It's something unpredictable But in the end is right I hope you had the time of your life So take the photographs And still frames in your mind Hang it on a shelf of good health And good time Tattoos of memories And dead skin on trial For what it's worth It was worth all the while It's something unpredictable But in the end is right I hope you had the time of your life (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
8:27 pm	closed! THIS JOURNAL IS OFFICIALLY CLOSED, THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
10:54 am	errrrrrrg Ok I appologise, I'm bitching alot lately. But here I go again... I hate being stood up, and it's happened to me more in the last month than ever before in mylife. I honestly don't care if something else comes up, or if you'd rather just relax at home instead because you are more tired than you thought you'd be, but for fucks sake call me and tell me that. That's it, just a phone callor even a fucking IM saying, oh hey don't wait around for me I'm not going to make it. That is all. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
10:28 am	Fun! "THE NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE IN TAUNTON HAS ISSUED AN EXCESSIVE HEAT WATCH...WHICH IS IN EFFECT FROM TUESDAY AFTERNOON THROUGH WEDNESDAY EVENING. THE WATCH INCLUDES ALL OF SOUTHERN NEW ENGLAND EXCEPT CAPE COD...MARTHAS VINEYARD...NANTUCKET AND BLOCK ISLAND. DANGEROUS HEAT AND HUMIDITY WILL AFFECT MUCH OF SOUTHERN NEW ENGLAND TUESDAY AND ESPECIALLY WEDNESDAY. TEMPERATURES WILL SOAR WELL INTO THE 90S TUESDAY AFTERNOON AND WILL APPROACH 100 DEGREES IN THE CONNECTICUT VALLEY REGION OF WESTERN MASSACHUSETTS. THE COMBINATION OF HEAT AND HUMIDITY WILL RESULT IN HEAT INDICES OF UP TO 105 DEGREES TUESDAY AFTERNOON. WEDNESDAY WILL BE THE HOTTEST DAY OF THE WEEK...AS HIGH TEMPERATURES REACH 100 DEGREES OVER MOST OF SOUTHERN NEW ENGLAND. HEAT INDICES ARE LIKELY TO REACH AROUND 110 DEGREES WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON." oh joy! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
10:51 am	A name "What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other word would smell as sweet." --From Romeo and Juliet (II, ii, 1-2) Admittedly from one of my least favorite of Mr. William's work this idea has been afflicting me of late. I imagine very little will change between Kim and I now that we are trying the friends thing. We aren't anywhere near each other spacially so typical activities between two people in a dating type relationship weren't occurring anyways. We had stopped saying we loved or missed each other some time ago for our own individual reasons. When we did talk it would either be a fight or polite yet immaterial noise to fill a conversational silence and emotional gap between our understanding of what "we" were. In every other relationship I've been in where I've truly cared for the person it has always ended so fiery that an equally strong feeling of animosity fills the void with in a week. (Note: a week is the average time it has taken serious ex's of mine to move on to dating someone else. It's been as late as a month and as early as before they actually got around to breaking up with me. However I don't see Kim dating anyone else because I do believe her when she says she isn't interested in anyone else. *Warning cocky, egotistical statement is imminent if you wish to avoid said reference please proceed to the next asterisk: God damn it if I don't say so my self but I think I am a fairly amazing catch. Yeah I've got some self esteem issues like most people, but I can say that I am quite happy with my looks. I'm definitely one of the nicer people I know and I have a great sense of humor, I find my self almost amusing to no end, hehe flutter guts I just lost the game. Anyways, * this concludes our brief interruption back to our regularly scheduled journal entry.) Where was I? Oh yes so I feel really weird. I guess lonely is the best word for it though it still isn't really right. I mean I was lonely before, Kim and I have only seen each other for 5 weeks in the last 11 months. She coped with the distance by dissociating herself from me where as I just kind of dealt with it. So I've been lonely so to speak for almost a year consistently now. It's more that I guess I miss having someone to miss. Kim and I still talk everyday and the conversations are truly no different yet. So what is it that I miss? The only thing I can think of is the name, the title. Would I refer to Kim as "my girlfriend" often? I don't think so I can't really remember doing it at all. Who knows, maybe I took a certain pride in being off the market, or in knowing that someone else found me worth taking themselves off the market. Maybe I just hate the fact that I couldn't make a relationship work through what everyone thought we were nuts to try. I can honestly say that I don't think I could have done anything else to make it work. In hindsight of course there are things that I could have done differently but none of them do i think would have made a monumental difference in the outcome. I'm someone for whom absence made the heart grow fonder and she wasn't. I guess I do feel some relief, no longer am I trying to maintain a relationship between two people in which only .5 of the people wanted to be in it. I guess the bottom line is that I hate being depressed and lonely. So I need people to hang out and spend time with. Bennet get your ass down here and we'll shoot the shit over something or other. The rest of you, become my servants and entertain my every whim.... no? oh um ok how about we just hang out then? Current Mood: Who knows... (12 Comments |Comment on this)
10:04 am	Bored Ten Top Trivia Tips about The Keeke! When provoked, The Keeke will swivel the tip of its abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at its attacker! In Japan it is considered rude to talk with The Keeke in your mouth! Europe is the only continent that lacks The Keeke. Moles are able to tunnel through 300 feet of The Keeke in a day! On average, women blink nearly twice as much as The Keeke! Plato believed that the souls of melancholy people would be reincarnated into The Keeke! A bride should wear something old, something new, something borrowed, and The Keeke. There are more than two hundred different kinds of The Keeke! The Keeke is the world's tallest woman! During severe windstorms, The Keeke may sway several feet to either side. I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
8:50 am	Shawn/Tennis/Single Yesterday was bizzar, it almost needs three updates since yesterday was broken into three completely different parts. Firstly I visited Shawn with Sheila yesterday. In situatoins like that I am always truely amazed at what the human body is capable of. A week and a half ago every statement about Shawn was preceeded by "If he lives, then..." Now Shawn is perky, walking with the help of a walker and a team to get him out of bed. He is even planning out his exalted character already and taking pot-shots at Sheila for dumping him. We stayed there for almost three hours just sitting and chatting, truthfully I seemed to be the one with the most medical issues in the room as my legs and knee were locking up as well as my stomach freaking teh fuck out since I hadn't had lunch yet. If you with to keep yourself informed of Shawn's progress on your own you can keep checking http://shawnrobbins.blogspot.com/ in the next few days Shawn is going to leave the hospital and go to a in-patient rehab clinic in Ludlow for a week or two. Yay Shawn! After visiting Shawn I went to my mother's new house that she and her boyfriend, Ted, who I have decided is to be called Tedward, for a late birthday celebration of my brother's and my birthdays back in June. We postponed it due to the chaos of a move and what not. Anyways it was great, had lasagnia and chocolate cake. I was also given a tennis raquet and so was my brother. Ted adn his son, Charlie, are both frequent tennis players so we went to some local courts and played untill it was too dark to see anything, my brother and I were back three games to five. Not bad for my first time playing tennis since England and there I played for the first 3-4 times in my life. Do any of you have tennis stuff adn woudl like to play ona some what regular basis? Let me know if you would. After That I came home and spoke to Kim for quite a while and decided that we should try the whole friends thing untill she gets back in the area at least. So I guess that makes me single tech... Woah! Slow down ladies. I'm still very much in love with Kim and still affected by that weird thing where I no longer look at other girls in a, to put it rather callously, on the market sense. I can recognise if another girl is attractive but my mind no longer identifies that as something worth more than noting in passing. Hopefully this will make me a happier person, I'm sorry to those of you I've snapped at or been unfair to simply because of my mood. I know, you probably didnt even notice but for me I've been far to down trodden and serious of late. Well today is looking to be anouther beautiful day out, I certainly shan't spend another day liek yesterday inside a hospital so I bid you farwell for now, call me I'm bored. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
10:59 am	Doc's Ok so I had a doctors appointment this morning at 10:00. I was told I'd have to pick up x-rays first so I go to health services at 9:15ish. I went to radiology and it turned out they had sent them over on their own... cool. This does mean however that I am now 45 minutes early to an appointment, but whatever right. Ok so I'm there and for some reason I get seated right away. It's 9:20 or something before I get seated after she's gone through all the paperwork they mailed me. I'm told that the doctor has to see one more patient before me so I can just have a seat and wait. I snag a piece of paper and pen and honestly don't look at the clock again till afterthe appointment. So get this, he wasn't 30 minutes late, wasn't an hour late, wasn't running 15 minutes behind, he was early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was out of there at 9:45, 15 minutes before my appointment was even supposed to start. He did a thorough examination, of my knee byt he way I realized I didn't mention why I was there. I now have an MRI on sunday to look at it further. He, the doctor, didn't feel like he could make a diagnosis prior too it. He said it could be anythign from a cardillage tear, BAD!, to someone who's knee just takes longer after an injury to not be easily irritated, GOOD!. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
11:25 am	ugh... I hate choices... and I hate waiting. Sitting here... waiting. No longer anything I can do, just waiting. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 11th, 2006
4:35 pm	Choices As anyone who knows me has experienced first hand I hate making decisions. I'm not sure why, simple choices like where to eat don't seem simple. The more it affects people other than me the harder time I have making that choice. As you can guess I'm faced with a decision. One of those ones where it isn't simple, not to anyone. My gut says one thing, my head another, my heart a third, and none of them feel right. I perpetually place others before myself, I like that about me, but is this an ok time to do that, is it fair to any one involved? Fuck this thinking shit I'm going to The Hanger for all I can eat wings! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 8th, 2006
9:46 pm	So I'm drunk The following is a list of things that have defeated me as the night goes on. I'll update this as I get defeated.: 1) A pool queue 2) A VCR 3) a Key board (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
2:09 pm	I don't ask much of you... Ok that's right I don't ask much of you guys but I have a request... do any of you know anyone looking to sell an electric guitar and or amp and pedal for cheap? That is all. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
7:27 pm	Find your Celestial Choir (Comment on this)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
10:08 pm	Sullivan "it's not hard to reach back to the day underneath that iowa sun running to the tower of waterloo looking for the Sullivan's train to come and his five boys would run to the top and salute him as he went by first we'd wave hello then we'd wave goodbye goodbye it's not hard to reach back to the days after the attack on pearl overnight my buddies turned into men running out of time for games and girls and the Sullivan boys were not overlooked Uncle Sam calling each by name the very next day they left on a mystery train say goodbye, Mrs. Sullivan and don't you cry "-We regret to inform you the Navy has keeping your sons away-" all five... so put your blue stars in the window it's not hard to reach back to her smile when she'd recieve a letter and the letters they sounded generally the same said if they couldn't be home at least they were together on a mighty fighting battleship somewhere in the South Pacific the letters never got much more specific say goodbye, Mrs. Sullivan and don't you cry "-We regret to inform you the Navy is keeping your sons away-" all five... so keep your blue stars in the window it's not hard to reach back to the day when the war finally came home Uncle Sam'll send you a telegram so he doesn't have to tell you over the phone i heard she cracked up when they found out what the war had cost when all five of her boys were lost... say goodbye, Mrs. Sullivan go ahead and cry "-We regret to inform you that all your sons have passed away-" all five... so change your blue star to gold blue stars to gold" Current Music: Sullivan: Caroline's Spine (Comment on this)
Monday, May 1st, 2006
4:24 pm	pensive I don't really have much to update. I have a sort anecdote for you all. As most of you know my uncle Joe Murray passed away two weeks ago. Today was the first day I returned to my normal class schedual. In my E&M class my proffessor is given to telling lenghty anecdotes of his own. In the middle of his story for today, one induced by a students ingorance of McCarthy erra happenings, he brought up his friend he worked with, Joe Murray... small world huh. I spoke to him after class and it turns out they were not the same person but still.. kind of erie to happen in the first class I return to after my uncle's death. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
7:22 pm	RIP Uncle Joe, you will be missed. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
11:29 am	an update I haven't written much in a while, partially because I have beena busy busy guy and partially because I don't really know what to say. I guess I can just let you all know what's up. I've been mainly quite busy with physics and frisbee. Physics is going well and I have broken anything else in quite sometime. SInce we last spoke Kim has come and gone, it was wonderful having her around and things between us are quite good. I'm currently workign on a place for us and two of my friends next year. I have one in place.. I just need to make sure they are planning on leaving. They have said they are, but they don't knwo where they are going to yet. I'm goignto be going to England to visit her at the end of May and hopefully the two of us will take a week during that time to go to Southern Spain, Costa del Sol is what we're lookign at currently. The frisbee team is doing very well although I am sidelined with a injured MCL and hamstring from Febuary. In other news my uncle is very ill, he has cancer and the treatments have all failed, they think he has about two weeks to live. I saw him yesterday it was intense, I hadn't seen him since he started getting sick and it was a pretty big shock even though I knew what to expect. This sunday is easter and my family is using it as an excuse to all get together with him and spend some time with each other. I only say excuse becasue we aren't religious, not as in we need an excuse to see each other or be with him. Other things, Megans game is wrapping up so I'm excited to either get to run mine, which I have a good idea of what I'd like to do or play in a Christ's starwars game. I'm kind of fading away from WoW, I play once or so a week and don't really feel the need or want to play any more. Who knows it may just be a phase. I am quite excited for Vanguard: Saga of Heros, it'l eb coming out late this year hopefully. My optomistic self hopes to get kim into that one so we can at least play together. If she's whole heartedly opposed I might not get it but who knows. that's enough rambling for now (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
7:28 am	She laughed Kim called me last night to let me knwo she'd made it to Atlanta safely. We only talked briefly because it was the same as 3am for her. But I made her laugh, hearing that sound made me happier than I can remember being in a long time, ie. stupid grin on my face for the rest of the night. I can't wait till Monday. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 13th, 2006
12:02 pm	Hey what's up, So it occured to me that I may be coming across as confident or grounded, accepting or apathetic, or some other blasé set of terms. This so unbelievable far from the truth. I am scared to death of losing Kim. How do I state my needs with out sounding demanding? How do I express my need for affection without her interpreting that as meaning that I want more sex? How do I confront her about my unhappyness without pushing her further away than she already is? How do I ballance the face that she wants emotional distance while she's away with the fact that I need to feel closer to her? How do I tell her that I want to work my life aournd being close to her with out making her feel guilty she doesn't think she does? How do I get the courage to say that, even though I would do anything for her and to be with her, if things don't change I don't think I can keep it up till she get's back next fall? How do I explain that I don't feel to young to feel this way about someone? How do I explain to her that it's actually painful for me to not be able to tell her I love her because I don't want to upset her and make her feel guilty for not being able to say it back truthfully? How do I figure out all of this before next Monday when I see her? Here's to hoping for a wonerful and relationship stabilizing spring break next week. -The emotionally distraught Keeke (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
12:36 pm	Touche Have you ever been listening to music and a song comes on that is exactly the thought process you are having? Current Music: Touche: Godsmack (3 Comments |Comment on this)